The Big Pause: A Collection of Reflections

Photo Credit: Luciana Aranha

A few weeks before everyone in Paris felt her breath slow down, I felt it in my whole body.

The tip off that something was really wrong came as an intuitive hit when I noticed my French teacher wasn’t feeling well, it wasn’t anything she said or did, it was the way I noticed that her energy shifted quickly on the day of our last class together - this seems like a lifetime ago now.

From that moment I listened to my body, despite the slight judgement I felt from a few friends around me, and I began to prepare for deeper isolation. By the time the world caught up to her new breathing rhythm I was happily in my nest perched high above the city and feeling the peace my preparations afforded me.

There is beauty in this silence, it is sobering, affirming, and it comes with deep connection if you listen carefully.

I’ve been observing now for over a month; this great mirror and amplifier called Covid-19 is giving me much to reflect on. More than this, I’ve amped up my service to a higher frequency and this has been keeping me present and focused on the blessings rather than the many deeply painful realities of the collective energy around the world.

This collection of reflections that I hope to share in the coming days comes with my Pollyanna outlook, it comes from someone who has carefully curated a life of solitude for the last decade, and someone who has been on a lifelong journey into herself. I realize this is not the perspectives of many, or the path of many, but I hope that my thoughts will touch you and inspire you in a way that might bring you peace and encouragement.